I never knew what it was called, this feeling I constantly had. Turns out it’s called ‘drapetomania’, the feeling of wanting to run away or at least that’s what Google tells me.
It’s that nagging feeling that’s so strong, it makes you feel sick in your stomach.
I’m not a psychologist, but anyone who feels this, is sure to feel low if not miserable for whatever they’re going through in their lives. Some are actually depressed while for others it’s just this feeling of not belonging.
Whichever the case may be, when someone tells you they feel this way, please I beg you, do not dismiss them.
It takes courage to talk about this, so when the person you’ve trusted enough to talk about this with tells you something like ‘get over it’ or ‘it’s just a phase’, it just does more harm than good ; because that person clams up.
For those who feel this way, I know how you feel. Hold on. You know, it does get better. You’ve come so far from where you were.
If you know why you feel this way you’re lucky, not everyone knows. For many it’s their surrounding circumstances in which case it’s obvious what to do.
Stay away from those people /situations that dull your shine and make you feel less than your sparkly self.
Because you know what? You’re fire. And even when you’re nothing but a spark, you hold in you the power to start jungle fires.